I should go to sleep now...but I still want to be awake!! Funny.

Cold fire, loving hate, and whatever else...OXYMORONS. Don't know why I'm typing these, but I'm feeling a mixture of feelings now. Excited (somewhat) to go back, but yet slightly upset because I know I'm going to miss my dad, Malaysia and my cousin.

Fare thee well all ye Malaysians. :)

Haha. Spouting rubbish again. Maybe it's the dinner I had. Or maybe it's just me.
I'm thinking, maybe I should abandon all the work I'm doing now and do a major in English and Literature instead. So much more fun. Can still remember my Form 3 English teacher's comment. She said I have a knack in English. Well, but somehow I felt Science seems much safer. And besides, I can, er, mug for it? Hur hur.

And er, love life!

IloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyou Rachel! Hehe. Getting mushy aren't I?
Keep your head up high girl coz God is with us, NOTHING can be against us! Take care and all the best for your studies. :)

Happy New Year! And early one at that...going back lar. sien.

Going back to Singapore is dreadful. First I have to put up with the dust that got into my nose and then sniffing away like a dog (heh, bad simile). Anyway, don't know what to say lar. Just look out of the window and look at the sky. The night sky today is spectacular. The full moon is all up and there for you to gaze at it. Reminds me of Thuy though. She happens to know only one Chinese song. Which also happens to be associated with the moon. Yue liang dai biao wo de xin.

Went for dinner with my family and cousins. I'm going to miss her (my cousin) so much! Can't believe this is the last time we played Pictionary together! And our last Christmas together! :( Until unless we go to New Zealand, there's no way I can see her. Well, all the best to you Debbie! :)

To Rachel. Don't feel so upset lar.

ON MY OWN

Eponine
And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to
Without a home without a friend
Without a face to say hello to
And now the night is near
I can make believe he's here

Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
Without me
His world would go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own.